I used to love purple, but not now; not anymore

My former room mate back in Kuantan had been pouring out what had been inside her for such a long time. i had been missing her dearly. To the extend that i wanna tell her everything, though distance & time do not allow us to do so.

We used to share lotsa things that others can't share. We know basically every little thing about each other. Yes we are of two different backgrounds, two different kind of girl. But there is one thing we always share and always will i cherish forever. We share the same God, same faith, same love^^

The moment i step my foot out of Kuantan, i have made up my mind; there are things that i really wanna change in life though i have no clue how it is suppose to be.

Let's write a rhyme of poem out of it:

i used to love purple, i really do
but not now, not anymore
i used to love the things we did with them, i guess u know what i mean
but not now, not anymore

i used to love him, i really do
but not now, not anymore
i used to think in my own shell, my own comfort zone
but not now, not anymore

i guess only u & i will be able to understand
they told me i change, an extreme change
but then i told them i didn't change at all, not a bit

i don't like how i used to be in Kuantan,
doing evil things that are against my faith
i don't like how i am controlled by him, u know what i mean

i regretted what i did, confessions i did
but time really heals
i made up my mind...
i don't wanna go back...
nor do i wanna dwell in the past..

But my dearie girl, we are not immature anymore like how we used to be..
back in those days..
yes u & i change a lot..
but one thing for sure..
i know..we change to be a better person in God's name..
& i like how the way it is now..

my dearie girl, i believe u are a gift from God to me..
u are a miracle that i prayed before we even met..
believe me..
they may not understand.. but i don't care..as long as u & i & God understand..
we know our paths that we are doing it right..

so do not be afraid to take any step..
for God is watching over u..
He will keep an eye on u..u are the cross that He is carrying..

Though i love u too much to tell u this..
i cherish all the moments i had in Kuantan..especially with u..
for it's true what they said that i changed.. yes i did.. but change to be more of me than i used to be..u too i believe^^

He still love me..
He still love u..
u & i know..
but it's a wrong kind of love..
we let the evil control us..
i hope they change.. but i am glad u did^^

Love is just patient & kind
Love is not selfish
Love is altruistic..
u & i know what it means..
i can only pray..that always u will be..strong enough for him & her..
God wants u to be that way..

And to the end of days i will always keep an eye on u..
we learnt a lot don't we?
at least we get to learn from our mistake of evil love..
though the best part is..we get to fall in love again^^
it's painful i know..but at least we know now deep inside this is the right one..
for i used to love purple, but not now, not anymore^^

(Dedicated to Dorine Patrick, Lots of Love from former room mate)
P.S: I would as well like to dedicate this to two guys that i used to know,u know who u are, i hope they change in God's name, i really do.